Chapter Twenty Eight: Relax! It’s Just a Scratch…

The endometrial scratch I had a few days ago was quite a bit worse than last time but maybe that's a good thing. I had a different doctor this time and she really scraped me up. Hopefully that translates to a super awesome endometrial lining next month.  While she was shoving a catheter into my … Continue reading Chapter Twenty Eight: Relax! It’s Just a Scratch…

Chapter Twenty Five: Stuck in the Infertility Flowchart

You know the charts I mean, where each step is a box and you follow the arrows to the next box? This flowchart is supposed to end with pregnancy.  At first my wait was exciting; thinking I could be pregnant in just a few months. Then it turned to frustration waiting to see if I … Continue reading Chapter Twenty Five: Stuck in the Infertility Flowchart

Chapter Twenty One: Another Coin Toss

This month's frozen embryo transfer also failed. It's easy enough to flip a coin and get tails twice I guess, but this frigging coin is starting to feel rigged. The flips are high stakes: we have inputted an average of 4 months of time - one month of which is my body feeling absolutely shitty, … Continue reading Chapter Twenty One: Another Coin Toss

Chapter Twenty: Try Try Again

I am into my third month of hormones and ultrasounds for an embryo transfer. The first month was cancelled due to unexplained bleeding and the second month's embryo failed to properly implant. This month's try was threatened with being cancelled due to sickness, but I ended up feeling better by the transfer date so we … Continue reading Chapter Twenty: Try Try Again

Chapter Nineteen: Silver Linings

There is always something positive that can be found even in a negative situation. It's one of those sayings that is easy to say, yet much more difficult to live. I've been trying to implement this strategy in order to keep my sanity over the past 3 years (sometimes poorly and other times quite well), … Continue reading Chapter Nineteen: Silver Linings

Chapter Sixteen: Not Counting Chickens

Everyone around me seems to be excited but I'm not. People genuinely seem alarmed and perplexed when I tell them I'm not. Let me explain. I am scared. To be clear, I'm not scared of becoming pregnant. I'm scared of not becoming pregnant. It's thinking about all the effort, time, sacrifice and money put into the … Continue reading Chapter Sixteen: Not Counting Chickens

Chapter Fifteen: One Step Back

    So last month was a wash. The fluid sack ended up being a regular cyst and not the follicle we were hoping for. We decided to postpone the embryo transfer due to the unexplained bleeding I was  having, since we want to give each embryo the best possible environment for implantation. I was surprisingly; very … Continue reading Chapter Fifteen: One Step Back