I wonder if my child will take after me - like the old phrase about apples falling close to the tree. Does it only apply in reference to genetic children? The last embryo with genetic ties to me (made using eggs donated by my sister) has now been transferred from the lab to my body. … Continue reading Chapter Thirty One: Falling Far From The Tree?
Well I guess you could say the witch's brew of hormones and magic didn't work. I am still not pregnant after the double embryo transfer last month. We are heartbroken; a feeling we have grown very accustomed to month after month. I try my best to protect my heart, but the sting is still incredibly … Continue reading Chapter Thirty: Double Double Toil and Trouble
This morning was another ultrasound in preparation for yet another frozen embryo transfer. The doctor seemed very happy with my endometrial lining at 9.3mm and our decision to transfer two embryos on Sunday. Prednisone was added to my protocol today as well. It's meant more for women with recurring miscarriage to lower your immunity so … Continue reading Chapter Twenty Nine: Strapped in for the Ride
The endometrial scratch I had a few days ago was quite a bit worse than last time but maybe that's a good thing. I had a different doctor this time and she really scraped me up. Hopefully that translates to a super awesome endometrial lining next month. While she was shoving a catheter into my … Continue reading Chapter Twenty Eight: Relax! It’s Just a Scratch…
We're now at four failed embryo transfers, three and a half years of trying, two donor IVF cycles and about $40,000 into this infertility wasteland. I think it's legitimate to say I'm an infertility marathoner. Lately I've been coming to terms with accepting I will probably never become pregnant. I thought the hardest part of … Continue reading Chapter Twenty Seven: Running out of Hope
I often hear comments from friends and family telling me not to give up. I'm almost ready for my forth embryo transfer and they are trying to encourage me to keep on going with treatments, and comfort me by saying one of them will surely work out. We are definitely going to use all four … Continue reading Chapter Twenty Six: Waiting out the Storm
You know the charts I mean, where each step is a box and you follow the arrows to the next box? This flowchart is supposed to end with pregnancy. At first my wait was exciting; thinking I could be pregnant in just a few months. Then it turned to frustration waiting to see if I … Continue reading Chapter Twenty Five: Stuck in the Infertility Flowchart