My sister Rosalie has set up a gofundme account to help with the IVF treatments. Please do not feel obligated to contribute. I write to get my story out and raise awareness about infertility. Some people have asked if they can donate money. If you have been following our story and would like to help, … Continue reading Gofundme

Chapter Twenty One: Another Coin Toss

This month's frozen embryo transfer also failed. It's easy enough to flip a coin and get tails twice I guess, but this frigging coin is starting to feel rigged. The flips are high stakes: we have inputted an average of 4 months of time - one month of which is my body feeling absolutely shitty, … Continue reading Chapter Twenty One: Another Coin Toss

Chapter Twenty: Try Try Again

I am into my third month of hormones and ultrasounds for an embryo transfer. The first month was cancelled due to unexplained bleeding and the second month's embryo failed to properly implant. This month's try was threatened with being cancelled due to sickness, but I ended up feeling better by the transfer date so we … Continue reading Chapter Twenty: Try Try Again

Chapter Nineteen: Silver Linings

There is always something positive that can be found even in a negative situation. It's one of those sayings that is easy to say, yet much more difficult to live. I've been trying to implement this strategy in order to keep my sanity over the past 3 years (sometimes poorly and other times quite well), … Continue reading Chapter Nineteen: Silver Linings

Chapter Eighteen: Schrodinger’s Embryo

Time passes very slowly between an embryo transfer and a definitive pregnancy test. This expanse of time, commonly known in the fertility world as the two week wait, drives everyone waiting through it (including me) completely up the wall. If you spend any amount of time on google researching pregnancy or infertility, which is what … Continue reading Chapter Eighteen: Schrodinger’s Embryo

Chapter Seventeen: Legally Mine

One of the prerequisites for our egg donor IVF was to have a legal contract drawn up. One section of this contract caught my attention in particular. I had assumed that since my sister was my substitute (and required to give up all rights to them) that the rights would transfer to me. They don't. … Continue reading Chapter Seventeen: Legally Mine

Chapter Sixteen: Not Counting Chickens

Everyone around me seems to be excited but I'm not. People genuinely seem alarmed and perplexed when I tell them I'm not. Let me explain. I am scared. To be clear, I'm not scared of becoming pregnant. I'm scared of not becoming pregnant. It's thinking about all the effort, time, sacrifice and money put into the … Continue reading Chapter Sixteen: Not Counting Chickens